I can’t wait to see you are you excited to see me? It doesn’t seem it because you can’t even answer me. I don’t know what I did but I guess I’ll just stop talking to you..

The fact that you don’t answer my text, calls, facebook chats, nothing it just kills me inside.

Really you call me a penpal?! A pen pal?! Wow! I could call you cheater a liar a piece of shit! I could call you so many things. You dare to say these things about me?! You just lost yourself ever getting back together with me! Ever!

My theatre rant.

Oh no play practice tonight is going to be weird. Because of you, not me, you. You would hang out me like we were dating and you would look at me and it was weird. Ugh! Now play practice tonight is already weird. Ugh. I have nothing to say to you.

When I got in his car that night I had no idea who he were, then taking that odd prank call for me. And me telling him that you were my best friend who knew that would be true. The first time I saw him was at the slushy machine, our eyes locked, I felt like he was looking into my soul. I felt like he could see everything I felt. He drove me and my friends home, I couldn’t even look at him. He gave me his number. I was so giddy I thought I was going to faint. He then came over to my friends hose the next day, he sat with me and we flirted like we’ve known each other for years. We hung out that day and you showed me you were funny and cool and most of all a gentleman. He asked me out the next day 9.19.10, I of course said yes. We went through everything imaginable that a couple would go through or wouldn’t go through. But we did it we made it though. Until it ended with that night at the mall after he picked me up from work. He said I was miserable when I was just tired. He drove me home and we sat in my driveway until he said what he had to say. The words that made my heart sink, “I think we should breakup.” I had to hold my tears back but I just looked at him and said, “Why?” It was so surreal, I couldn’t believe what I had heard. We had been through everything and he picks a random date December 17, 2012 to break up with me? I didn’t understand. He said that I wasn’t happy anymore. That he was going away to college in January and that it wouldn’t work. But It would’ve because over the course of the months of our break up, he came over, still hung out with me, and still told me he loved me. Why? I can’t say. But when I create a collage the day of his birthday to celebrate a day I find very special, and stay up late until midnight to wish you happy birthday, I get no response. The love I feel for him, makes me want to scream it to the world. I could, but even if it did he probably wouldn’t care. And that’s why I’m done trying to love him.

acquaint:

antisocial ( 3.3.13 )

acquaint:

antisocial ( 3.3.13 )

(Source: attains, via lilfieldmouse)

constant—-headache:

q family band —- featuring zoe reynolds on synth (this is me)

constant—-headache:

q family band —- featuring zoe reynolds on synth (this is me)

(Source: cineraria, via lilfieldmouse)